I’m cast and confined in the shadow of a ghost
A phantom formed from a former life
Inside that gloom of sadness and anger
What was bright now has been darkened
What was solid is formless and fluid
What was straight is twisted and tangled
What’s gone what is and what’s to come
All contained in an obscure reflection
Everything I see hear think or do
Is coloured in a shade of what’s been stolen
Hello everyone, sorry not been around for a long time, as the title says, i have been in a "dark place" since Christmas time.I got myself so down, did something very silly and ended up in hospital.
Now back home with stacks of pills,support worker,CPN and Dr,i am heading in the right direction.
I feel so embarassed writing this, and seeing the actual words in black and white is really difficult.
This happens to other people, not me,i know this must sound pathetic, but things happen!
Anyway i hope you are all keeping as well as possible, i have really missed you guys and feel like i've let the side down, sorry, will try harder and get back on track.
May take me a while to read all i have missed, and catch up with what's happening to you all.
Needless to say i am happy to be back with you.
To the future
Hi all. Im 31. Originally from s/e england but lived in spain for 10 years. Over the last 3 years i have been experiencing different sensations. All started with pain in my left elbow and arm. Like a servere ache and shooting pains. I ignored it until my fingers in both hands were twitching on and off and my hands ached like mad. I went to a british gp when i had a dizzy attack and had what i call white
ghosts in my right eye. Specsavers said my eyes were fine. My gp did blood tests cause she was worried about arthritis. Everything came back fine. In the mean time my legs were now aching and i was getting the most horrendous craps in my thighs in bed at night. My gp thought i was low on magnisium, potassium and other mineral salts. Suppliments made no difference.
I went to my nhs spanish gp who was russian and horrible to have my bloods tested again and to be told ' your fine- you work'. I now have a spanish private gp who has done bloods that have come back fine and suggests i could go to a neurologist but he thinks its not ms.
So i feel at the mo like im wasting peoples time but i know that the sensations im getting dont feel normal. I get a burning in the middle left of my back the most and my legs are spasuming a couple of times a day. My hands ache and i am soooo tired even after 8 hours.
Does this sound like it could be ms? Should i make the neuro appointment? Or am i wasting peoples time?
Thanks for your advice shelley:-)
Just in case any of you are interested/ able to go I am letting you know about this meeting: http://www.mssociety.org.uk/ms-events/2013/04/join-us-england-council-annual-meeting I received info about yesterday. Great Dane x
I joined yesterday, although still not convinced if this is the place for me.
I know no one would look down onme intentionally,
I just wondered if there are any others that come here from the opposite side of the
relationship to talk to eachother about how they cope and how they feel.
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