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Dark times

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cazza   

cazza

Hello everyone, sorry not been around for a long time, as the title says, i have been in a "dark place" since Christmas time.I got myself so down, did something very silly and ended up in hospital.

Now back home with stacks of pills,support worker,CPN and Dr,i am heading in the right direction.

 

I feel so embarassed writing this, and seeing the actual words in black and white is really difficult.

This happens to other people, not me,i know this must sound pathetic, but things happen!

 

Anyway i hope you are all keeping as well as possible, i have really missed you guys and feel like i've let the side down, sorry, will try harder and get back on track.

 

May take me a while to read all i have missed, and catch up with what's happening to you all.

Needless to say i am happy to be back with you.

 

To the future :cheers:

*A Christmas Carole*

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Stumbler   

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Cazza, we're all capable of visiting that dark place as sometimes, just sometimes, the burden of MS, combined with the trials and tribulations of normal life, can become huge and over-powering.

 

But, you've shown the strength of character to visit that dark place and now you've returned.

 

So, welcome back

 

:moonieman:

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John aka Stumbler (as I do fall over!)

Illegitimi non carborundum

 

"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming... "Wow! What a ride!"

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Nick   

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And we are happy to see you!!

 

Nick

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Just another Warrior...........

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Hezza   

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:hugs2: Cazza,

Good to have you back. You haven't let anyone down. Dark times happen to everyone. It takes strength and courage to get through those times and even more to talk about it.

 

Be gentle on yourself, we'll look forward to seeing you around the boards again.

 

xx

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Hi Cazza,

It is good to have you back. Please don't be so hard on yourself - you have let no-one down. I am sorry to hear you have been in such a dark place but so happy and relieved you have come out the other side. This disease is terrible thing and it is understandable that things get so dark at times. But always remember there are a host of people here who understand what it is like and we are all here to support each other.

 

Sending you hugs,

 

Gill xx

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Mal   

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Hi Cazza

 

Glad to have you back , as others have already said , you have let no one down!

we all know about these dark times .

 

looking forward to seeing you around

 

Mal x

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We missed you, Cazza. Glad you're back and yes, it does take courage to be honest so thanks for your example. Jill :hearts_circle: xx


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Aw Cazza, I'm sure you didn't do anything that hadn't crossed all our minds at some point, and I agree, there are certainly no apologies required!

 

Glad to hear you're OK and hopefully now you're back, you're getting a bit stronger

 

Sonia x

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Hi Cazza

 

Thank you for being so honest - that really takes guts!

I am so pleased you are now in a better place as I am sure everyone else is - you have nothing to apologise for - good to have you back.

 

Great Dane x

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Hi Cazza,

 

Sorry to hear you have had difficult days, but glad you're heading in the right direction.

 

 


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